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2002-12-11 16:38 | Nocturne
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I really don't know what to say at first. And I'm not sure about all your understanding. However, I just seemed to talk to myself, like the person who is not nervous but depressed at this time or that time.
All those are gone, can't be take back although you always wished that "if only they were here..." I often comfort the one in the reflection.
You're no more than a fool, I thought.
Don't you remember what you promised?
Well...It is not until realized the suffering struggle on my mind did I know it seemed to be difficult to deal with the situation.
I still remember what I said long ago...
I still remember how those gloomy Sundays came to an end...
I still remember the sense of freedom of the birds' flying...
I still remember the clear picture I've made with my own hands...
I still remember...
"I'll believe everyone until he cheats me." Said Cloud.
If you cheated yourself, would you take back what you said?
I guessed that you should ask several questions and say that "Oh, I don't know anything at all. I'm so innocent..."
Paying attention to others, you looked around as if nothing had happened.
The cold wind is blowing, the point is below zero.
With the dawn of another winter, I feel the whole body falling unconscious.
It is frozen everywhere. Can't be moved. Can't be woken up.
"I hate the heartless season." I said,"God please bestow a hibernation on me. I'd rather sleep until the next spring."
Being lost in thought, I still memorize the past, read the favorite poem silently:
I know you do exist,
But do not know where to find you.
I know you will arrive one day,
But do not know when that will be.
Indifferently you watch me living in exhaustion,
Without giving me even a hint.
In this state I move slowly towards that distant spot of faint light.
Until one day,
The moment when my heart fails and I depart from this world.
You will arrive.
--"My Way"
12-9,2002 23:58 pm jN.EDDA in Nocturne
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I really don't know what to say at first. And I'm not sure about all your understanding. However, I just seemed to talk to myself, like the person who is not nervous but depressed at this time or that time.
All those are gone, can't be take back although you always wished that "if only they were here..." I often comfort the one in the reflection.
You're no more than a fool, I thought.
Don't you remember what you promised?
Well...It is not until realized the suffering struggle on my mind did I know it seemed to be difficult to deal with the situation.
I still remember what I said long ago...
I still remember how those gloomy Sundays came to an end...
I still remember the sense of freedom of the birds' flying...
I still remember the clear picture I've made with my own hands...
I still remember...
"I'll believe everyone until he cheats me." Said Cloud.
If you cheated yourself, would you take back what you said?
I guessed that you should ask several questions and say that "Oh, I don't know anything at all. I'm so innocent..."
Paying attention to others, you looked around as if nothing had happened.
The cold wind is blowing, the point is below zero.
With the dawn of another winter, I feel the whole body falling unconscious.
It is frozen everywhere. Can't be moved. Can't be woken up.
"I hate the heartless season." I said,"God please bestow a hibernation on me. I'd rather sleep until the next spring."
Being lost in thought, I still memorize the past, read the favorite poem silently:
I know you do exist,
But do not know where to find you.
I know you will arrive one day,
But do not know when that will be.
Indifferently you watch me living in exhaustion,
Without giving me even a hint.
In this state I move slowly towards that distant spot of faint light.
Until one day,
The moment when my heart fails and I depart from this world.
You will arrive.
--"My Way"
12-9,2002 23:58 pm jN.EDDA in Nocturne
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